This is what I've been learning during past weeks: hurry is a killer! Busyness steals the joy of life and shrinks our hearts. Oh, we need to pull down this stronghold that's trying to convince us that we're somehow running out of time. That is a lie from the pits of hell. Seriously. Really seriously. This subject is worth emphasizing: time is not our enemy. I just got a new job (THANK YOU JESUS! I LOVE MY JOB IT'S AMAZING!!!), which is a real gift, but along with it I faced a challenge: how to manage my time? First weeks I fell into the enemy's trap and tried to control the time I had to do all the things I needed to do – and then was overwhelmed when I couldn't. Help me Jesus! Why did you put me in this situation? You know I want to get my degree before leaving for CA... There is a difference between controlling and management, Jesus told me, and started to re-teach me to live from the presence, not by principles. Oh, I needed those lessons! When my brain begun to tell me that I needed to study this and this much to pass my exams, it suddenly felt totally INAPPROPRIATE for Jesus to say "Come away with me" right in the middle of my crisis of "losing my time". I was blessed to live this interesting student life where I first spend the whole morning soaking in God's presence and then in the evening read some books, wrote essays and went out to do some other stuff. Sure, I am exaggerating the easiness of studying to make my point (it has required a lot of work), but this is what I've been learning really well during my three years in university: all fruitfulness flows from abiding in Him! I could begin my days with school stuff but then I would end up striving to come up with new ideas and motivation to study. OH NO WAY if there is a better way to approach these things. If you knew me when I was in high school, you could really tell the difference between me now and then. (For A-lavels I studied one week from 8AM to 11PM almost non-stop! How am I still alive?? Yes, I got excellent grades but at what a cost!) Every hour spent in the glory enhances my ability understand scientific literature tremendously. The more things I have in my schedule the more time I need with the Lord. Three hours of God-breath studying is much more effective than 3 days of studying in my own strength. It doesn't sound logical to the natural mind but we were never created to live by earthly principles in the first place. I believe we humans have a lot brain capacity that's been left unused for thousands of years (Remember Adam who gave names to all the animals? He had to memorize their names afterwards too, didn't he? And he got to have some amazing creativity within him to do that!). All the answers for life are found in God. I believe we will receive the cure for cancer and AIDS only though Jesus. Einstein invented the theory of relativity though a DREAM. Same happened with inventing the sewing machine. What is more, I've read of doctors getting dreams of how to solve the next day's surgeries. Take that, Ph.D. education! God is so much bigger than we've been accustomed to think! He loves it when we waste ourselves on Him. It might seem foolish, but God will only reveal His secrets to His friends! The church must arise in every area of life and it happens only trough relationship with Jesus. YES we were created for good works! But through abiding, not striving. With all that being said, now that I work full-time, it has been really fun to learn to bring the presence of God with me there and release it into all kinds of situations. It's all about where I set my heart on! There's no use of worrying because it separates my heart from the reality that's hidden from the natural eye. Anxiousness diminishes our ability to LOVE. Why leave for work in a hurry (or for any other place) when you could take a lot of time and enjoy the presence of God while walking/cycling/driving into your destination? We need to go LOWER AND SLOWER. That's one of the mottos of Heidi Baker and really sinking into my heart right now. There is a difference between a a busy moment and choosing a lifestyle of busyness. I refuse to go back into the latter one. Haha, and this is so funny: "the Chinese character for the word “busy” is written by combining the characters for heart and dead." How appropriate. ;) Picture 2. The first pic was my own. Sain juuri uuden työpaikan (WOW KIITOS JEESUS! RAKASTAN SITÄ!), mikä on todellinen lahja taivaasta, mutta sen myötä kohtasin haasteen: miten hallitsen ajan, jota minulle jää? Ensimmäiset viikot vihollinen onnistui hämäämään minua ja koetin kovasti kontrolloida aikaa, jota minulla oli, pystyäkseni tekemään kaiken mitä minun piti tehdä – ainoastaan pettyäkseni itseeni ja siihen, etten kyennyt siihen. Miksi laitoit minut tähän tilanteeseen? Tiedät, että tahdon saada tutkintoni valmiiksi ennen lähtöä ulkomaille! Silloin Jeesus alkoi puhua minulle kontrolloimisen ja viisaan ajanhallinnan eroista ja uudelleen opettaa minua elämään hänen läsnäolostaan, ei sääntöjen ja työlistojen alta. Oh, niin tarvitsin noita oppitunteja! Kun järkeni alkoi väittää minulle, että minun olisi opiskeltava näin ja näin paljon päästäkseni läpi tenteistäni, tuntui äkkiä niin EPÄSOVELIAALTA tuntea Jeesuksen kuiskaavan "Vietä tämä hetki kanssani" keskellä aikakriisiäni. Kaikki hedelmällisyys elämässämme virtaa siitä, että olemme hänessä ja hän on meissä! Ilman Jeesusta emme voi tehdä yhtään mitään. Oh, kolme tuntia Jumalan siunaamaa opiskelua on äärettömän paljon tehokkaampaa kuin kolme päivää pusertamista omassa voimassani. Kaikki vastaukset elämään löytyvät HÄNESTÄ, ja Jumala paljastaa salaisuutensa ystävilleen. Tiesitkö, että Einstein keksi suhteellisuusteorian UNIENSA kautta? Sama tapahtui ompelukoneen keksimisen kanssa! Olen varma, että löydämme lääkkeen syöpään ja AIDSiin Jeesuksen kautta! Mutta kellä on aikaa tutustua Jumalaan? Kuka on valmis kadottamaan itsensä ja aikataulunsa löytääkseen Hänen sydämensä? "Ei minulla oli varaa siihen" sanomme ja annamme huolen kutistaa sydämiämme. Oh, mutta ei meitä koskaan luotu elämään tämän maailman periaatteiden mukaisesti ja "ajan armoilla"! Kiinan kielessä sana "kiire" muodostetaan yhdistämällä sanojen sydän ja kuollut kirjainmerkit, mikä on mielestäni aika osuvaa! Miksi aina lähteä joka paikkaan kovassa kiireessä kun voisimme ottaa paljon aikaa ja nauttia Jumalan läsnäolosta kaikkialla: kävellessä, pyöräillessä ja autolla ajaessakin! <3
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